to kitson:

well, we have been classmates for 4 years. wooh.. .that's really long. we are not really exactly close. but huiying is ur jie mei and im her mama, so tat makes me ur... MAMA..?? =Xx. hahax. this is lame. anyway, thanks for being a wonderful friend. u have made the 4 years very enjoyable with your jokes. well, take care and hope u can achieve ur ultimate dreams. =)

posted by pam @ 11:41 PM 0 comments

to kailuen:

this is another person i gonna miss a alot. although we are going to the same junior college but we are going to the different courses. so we won't be in the same class anymore. n we won't be sitting togther any longer. well, i really going to miss all your craps and jokes. sometimes i find there are only two of us laughing hilariously out of the blue rite? hahax. i will remember those scribbled notes on the textbooks. i will remember those times when i complain abt tat gz teacher. i will remember those laughter when we watched the history videos (those dancing ladies in fast motion)
anyway, thanks for giving me so many memories for the past 2 years. u really cheered me up whenever im depressed or just listen to wad i have to say. well, u have been a great friend and a listener. although this year may seem bad to you, there's always a next and many next-es to come. so take care and may u find your true happiness soon. =)

posted by pam @ 10:53 PM 0 comments

to krystal:

heys. u are someone who is filled with energy and laughter. u seem to be free of worries and problems. n becos' of this, i sometimes can't help but to envy u. but well, maybe u have your own share of worries but dun wan to tell us. anyway, it's good to be happy. even though we maybe going to the same jc, we might still split up. well, i really wan to thank u for cheering me up whenever i'm sad.
you really have been a great friend. i will always remember that im your live jukebox, so whenever u need me to be there for u, jus tell me k? cos you will always be on my mind. i will oso remember that frogs dun fly and i really hope that is true. i will remember your cravings for potato chips and ice milk tea.
you have made my secondary life so much meaningful and i hope i also have made yours an unforgettable one too. let us not forget our vow to remain as friends cos i know i wun. take care and hope you will remain cheerful and free of worries.

posted by pam @ 1:31 PM 0 comments

how long can i take it? sometimes i feel i can't take it anymore. i guess im tired. tired of their scoldings. i know they are concern abt me. but i feel that i have no position to say anything. it seems like i cant even talk to her. she is considered the closest kin i have but stm i wonder if she treats me as one too. maybe she jus doesn't show it or i didn't realise it. but really, i get hurt by wad she says. really. i think i will get over it. i hope so.

posted by pam @ 12:59 AM 0 comments

to sharon:

4 more days and school is going to start. i know u must be feeling very sad. but i hope you will think positively. in a new environment, you can make so many new friends and who knows, maybe you will be much happier there than us, right? dun be too sad k? we will never forget you de. we will still meet together for our gossip sessions k? in vjc, do not be too stressed and do take care of your health. u like prone to sore throat, coughing, flu, ulcers, etc. u must really take care k? if you got any problems, must say it out and not keep to yourself.
well, i wish you all the best for nxt year and the years to come. always believe in yourself. becos' if you do, you will find tat the most impossible dreams will come true. please be happy k? in your letter, you ask me to be happier and im trying my best. so i hope you will too. rmb tat a smile is a curve that sets everything straight. stay happy always and true to yourself. =)

posted by pam @ 5:07 PM 0 comments

merry xmas to everybody. may all your wishes come true...

yesterday, 9 of us went to marina area to eat steamboat. we ate for almost 3 hours lor. well, it was quite fun and i even tried to bbq an egg yolk. well, at least, the egg yolk was still edible and tasted not bad. hahax. =Pp after dinner, we walked for like 15 minutes and decided to take the bus instead to marina mrt station. den we went to plaza singapura and sat down to talk. n kitson was like sending us those lame xmas greetings. hahax. den we went to take the neo stickers. can u imagine 9 of us squeezing into tat machine. hahax. but the photos turned out very nicely lor. i really like them. =)
anyway, thanks to sharon n krystal for those xmas cards. i really like them a lot n will cherish them. to huiying, thanks for 'u know wad'. (if u duno, i tell u in private k?) hahax. to zeqi, thanks for your treat. =) to weiliang, thanks for the self-made present. i really love those colours. hahax. (kitson, too bad. =X ) hahax. to alvin, thanks for your candies n chocolates. n to those who didn't give me anything, well, it's okie. all it matters to me is that u all were there to celebrate christmas together. thanks guys...!!!

posted by pam @ 12:38 PM 0 comments

im going to swim with my mei again. hopefully this time nothing will go wrong. hahax. i just recovered from my toe injury and really hope i wun be tat toopid again. or else i won't be able to go out with my friends tml. =X
im really looking forward tml...!!! yeahs~ =)

posted by pam @ 4:03 PM 0 comments

i duno wat to say. im tired too. =(

posted by pam @ 1:17 PM 0 comments

i went swimming with my mei yesterday. it was more than 5 years since we swam so yesterday's experience was a really memorable and fun one. but... bUt me being so clumsy, did not realise that the pool was actually quite shallow and i hit my toe on the bottom of the pool. it was really painful but i thought it was no big deal until i went home and realised i had difficulties walking. i had actually hit at my foot's nerves. so now i am limping about at home with an umbrella as a walking stick, looking so stupid. hahax. but this experience has taught me a lesson. we all should be fortunate that we can walk on two feet. i know this may sound lame but it's really true. without the function of one leg, i have difficulties doing many things, even the simplest thing like going to the toilet.
so everybody, pls take care of yourself..!!! =)

posted by pam @ 5:57 PM 0 comments

wah. it's nearly a week since i last updated my blog. anyway, yesterday was our class gathering. erm. it turned out worse than i expected. maybe it's because i was too lazy to plan anything for the class. really sorry guys. made you all waste an entire afternoon at a place so faraway. btw kitson you were right. pasir ris was better than east coast. =X
anyway, yesterday turned out quite suckkyy. haix. i dun wan to think about it. once i think abt it, i'll spoil my mood for the entire day again. anyway, thanks charlene for the piece of advice. im really very touched. (hope you will read this)
anyway, i still can't learn how to ride a bicycle. it's quite frustrating as you see pple cycling past u while you are still struggling to keep your balance. well, i still must give credits to my friends who helped me yesterday. thanks..!!!
this morning, my mei n i tog with my ma went to kk hospital for the checkup which i dread. i really hate the place there lor. it give me the creeps and the long waiting hours. n we have to change into the that stupid gown b4 taking the x-ray. it's so embarrassing wearing it in public lor. anyway i have grown 1 cm le. yeah..!!! hahax.

to my [mei]...
you are a mei who is 3 minutes younger than me. till now, i still can't imagine you are my mei lor. sounds so weird. =X hahax. anyway, i thank you for spending 16 years, 8 months and 13 days (i think) with me. the life we spent together was sometimes difficult but no matter what, we share the same blood, the same genes n almost everything. i know people may often see us bickering over the slightest thing but there's no such thing as a "ge ye chou" between us. we still share a strong bond between us. i know we have some differences. in actual fact, i think many differences. u may think i have changed. i admit i have. but u dun have to worry. i won't change to the extreme. as ur jie, i hope you will change too. i hope you will open up a little more. n dun worry, when i go to jc, i wun huang fei my studies cos' of him de. hope you can trust me. there are certain things i keep as a secret. maybe one day, when the time is ripe i will tell you bahx. don't blame me k. we all need some privacy for ourselves. i hope you understand. always remember that no matter what happens in the future, the love, care and concern i have for you will never fade. you will always be my dearest mei. well, i hope one day, you will find your own happiness n stay healthy forever. =) i love you.

posted by pam @ 4:04 PM 0 comments

haix. im so depressed. a lot of u may not know this. i may sound cheerful but im not happy. i duno why. i guess some of my friends are going through the same thing as me bahz. we are not even looking forward to the reopening of school. i guess it's b'cos we are going to be separated real soon. 3 more weeks n a new life, a new beginning awaits you. i thought i will be looking forward to it but im not. i don't want to be in a new environment. i don't want to be separated with my closest friends. i don't want to be separated with him. i want my class back. i want you guys back. im not trying to be dramatic here. but nobody understands what i'm going through now.

huiying: i guess we both have a lot in common. u said u were tired. me too. u can always lean on me if you need someone. i think a new beginning in jc will be good for you bahz. there's many things you should learn forget. i believe that you will one day. i cant imagine how important you are to me. you are always there to help me. (u know wad i mean) i cant thank you enough. i know i owe you a lot a lot. you still remember all the small talks we have together and almost every of them is about them. and sometimes u shed those precious tears n i'll provide tissue for u. or we just cry together. i think tat's why we grow so close together bahx. i will always remember that first night of the chalet. kinda sad but memorable rite? it was a very long night but i still remember it. i think you too rite? i think the most memorable moment that occurred in our 4 years of friendship is this year's chalet. but it's high time u move on. i think many pple have told u this le. i not sure if u really have anot. but based on my initiution, i don't think you have yet. am i right? well, i can't help you much but just to advice you to move on. hope we will have fun tml bahx.
this sentence is for u: no matter how far apart we are, i'll be there for you.

sorry guys, i will write one for you all soon k? and to my dearest mei, i will write one for you too. dun worry. take care.

posted by pam @ 11:36 PM 0 comments

hmm. this entry is specially dedicated to santa zihao. hahax. i am very grateful for the advices and help he has given me whenever i needed them. although i may not be very close to him, i have treated him as a good buddy. he's a very friendly guy with a joie de vivre personality, never failing to spread a little joy to those around him. haha. so any girls interested in him can just inform me kk? seriously, thanks so much for last night. i think next time you can become a marriage counsellor. hahax. well, hope this entry is long enough for u. are u happy? hahax. take care and hope you will find your own happiness soon. =)

posted by pam @ 4:40 PM 0 comments

誰在乎我的心裡有多苦
誰在意我的明天去何處
這條路究竟多少崎嶇
多少坎坷途
我和妳早已沒有回頭路
我的愛藏不住
任憑世間無情的擺佈
我不怕痛不怕輸
只怕再多努力也無助
如果說一切都是天意
一切都是命運
終究已註定
是否能再多愛一天
能再多看一眼
傷會少一點
如果說一切都是天意
一切都是命運 誰也逃不離
無情無愛此生又何必
(無情無愛此生我認命)

posted by pam @ 12:12 PM 0 comments

guess wad? my parents dun allow me to work. haix. they advise me to enjoy myself during the holidays. so i guess i'll be rotting at home for the rest of the holidays. maybe they are right. since hols is going to end soon, i think i better just relax first. hahax.

there's so many times i wan to tell to this person alone. i have so many things to tell him. but it's either i dont have the courage to do so or he doesnt have it. or maybe the timing is all wrong. there's only abt 28 more days b4 we go to different junior colleges. the time left is just too little. but wat's more can i ask for? maybe i should just be satisfied with the 28 days. i've too many things to say to this person but i guess i shldnt say it here. i just hope u can understand me a little more. really. i know u're doing alot for me le. but i still need your understanding.

dear friends, esp my gang, dont be mistaken kk? i dun mean u are not important but u are also equally as important to me. i think i have explain u all before in the chalet le rite? i hope you all can understand my feelings. well, since there's only 28 more days, i really hope all of us will really treasure the days left. i know i have been saying this in almost all my entries. but it's the truth. i wont be able to meet some of u pple as often le, esp sharon. im going to write a very long entry after i get back some more of the autographs. so pls pls, kindly return them to me.

posted by pam @ 1:09 AM 0 comments

Right Here Waiting

Ocean's apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Whereever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But i can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

repeat chorus

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if i'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

repeat chorus

posted by pam @ 5:57 PM 0 comments